For this weeks entry I’m doing something a little different. I enjoy doing the blog thing, I enjoy talking about and sharing perspective on leadership. But some days, some weeks It feels more forced than not. This is one of those weeks. I have a topic to discuss and share, I have some insights to put out there but for some reason I’m not feeling it.

So instead, let’s talk about how normal that is? How as an introvert it takes a lot of energy to put yourself out there. To show up as a leader the way your team, family, friends and others need you and deserve from you. At the same time, when I get into this “not feeling it” mode I do a lot of thinking, 2nd guessing, questioning myself and challenging where I am in life.

I get deep into what is my true purpose, what is it that I‘m passionate about? Why is it so freaking hard to answer that question and figure this out? Why do I feel at 42 years old that I haven’t figured any of this out and that I really need to? Why does it pull me down into a rabbit hole of sorts that usually ends in me just moving on or getting distracted by something else?

I’ve tried a lot of things, I’ve tried hobbies, blogging, podcasting and jobs. I’ve done Ironman’s, great jobs, bought nice cars, bought nice watches, moved homes, been in and out of church and a deeper relationship with Jesus. At the end of the day some days, I just haven’t been able to feel like I was on the right track consistently, kick the feeling that I was meant for more or at least something else, that I am supposed to be doing more with life.

But then, it hits me, these feelings, these weeks are 100% normal and the best leaders, the most successful people work through them and come out the other side even better. Sometimes it’s a motivational video, quote, chat with a friend, family member, mentor or team mate that wakes you up. Reminds you of all the impact you’ve already made and for me I’m back in the game. Motivated and ready to go.

I trust that I’ll figure it out, that I’m on the right path and that by being curious about life and experiences, I will find my way. That being the best husband, dad, brother, son, friend, team member, leader and more that I can be will lead me to the place I’m meant to go. It’s a journey and I want to enjoy every step and twist and turn along the way. I’m extremely grateful for my life!

I put this out there this week because I’d love to hear from you and if/how you think about life? Do you go through these times, have these thoughts? Have you figured it out? Reach out because I’d love to hear about it.

Dave